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Monday, July 30, 2012

The Daughter

I was slouching around kvetching about wanting to get a Y membership, but feeling anxiety about spending the money and not using it.  20 something really came through with encouragement, and now I have a Y membership.  Still quaking in my danskos about wasting money when I don't frequent the Y in future, but small steps were taken.  And these are being acknowledged here.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

The Freak


Last week I took that Artful Learning summer course. And this week I have several school related things I need to attend:  literacy summit sessions, interviewing, and a few other sundry meetings.  This is the moment in time where I freak out because my summer projects and goals aren't done and I start feeling some extreme anxiety and wishing I were a different type of person altogether.  As the anxiety and identity issues increase, the productivity and efficiency decrease.  The proverbial vicious cycle.
Maybe blogging will help.

Friday, July 27, 2012

The Learning

I've been at Artful Learning Summer Course all week at Artful School.  Artful Learning courses are super intense.  We worked with music, sculpture, plays, writing, poems, performance art and garage band exploring the theme of LEGACY.  Sometimes I had to leave the workshops so I could complete helper tasks.  That gets a little annoying sometimes, and I was fairly frazzled by the end of today.  Snapped at a few people, but I think they mostly just accepted that I get like that sometimes.  I hope they did anyway.  Would hate for my legacy to be heinous witch.

Anyway, at the end of the day we did this performance piece that was super moving about our collective legacy, and we were all on stage together, and many of us did in fact cry during it.  Indeed, I was one of the criers.  This school gig is super emotional.  I wanted to get into bed early tonight, but instead I'm heading out to a place where beverages are sold and music is played to hear #1 son play the bass in his new band, Charlie and the Groove Factory.
                    I'm ready, Teddy.  Go cat go.  Tutti Frutti, OH Rudy!

Sunday, July 22, 2012

The Why


Since the Aurora massacre, I've been having a hard time staying away from articles about possible motives.   I know that there's nothing really to know about why this happened, past that the murderer is unhinged and broken. Still, I keep sneaking back to the googler, thinking that possibly this time there will be some info about why. Goal for today:  Try to let go of this irrational need to understand.

Another thing I'm looking for online is a widespread clamoring for some gun control.  Any little amount of control would be welcome.  Maybe there could be a limit placed on how many rounds of ammunition you can buy online. I'm not even sure what 6,000 rounds means because I don't buy ammunition or use it, but it seems excessive.

Friday, July 20, 2012

The "Cold"


Book Group meeting at my house last night. I always freak out about inviting people over and then it's always really fun. So I'm having some cognitive dissonance in that department.  Anyway, 9 people from Artful School came over and several others read the book but couldn't make it for the live chat.  Opening Minds is a great book and our discussion covered a lot of rich topics, from the importance of avoiding fixed trait language, to how to help kiddos have relevant conversations, to how we help kids learn about how brains work.  The truth of the matter is this:  I work with fab, fun, just plain interesting peeps.  The only problem with the book chat was this:  I had a little bit too much fun and overslept and missed an interview I was supposed to attend at 9. It's really Husbandman's fault because he wakes up every day at 6 and then brings me a cup of coffee, but last night he took some cold medication because of his "cold" and so he slept in, thus letting me down. Thanks, a lot, Husbandman.  Way to make me look bad at my job.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

The Problem


I'm trying to write an article, based on some chapters from my dissertation.  Here's the problem.  The dissertation is written with a million citations on every page.  I need to rewrite a lot of the diss to have less citations, but that's hard to figure out how to do because I don't want to take other people's words and claim them as my own.  I haven't figured this out yet.  Today I'm getting a little down about this.  Trying to stay upbeat and lighthearted, but may be slipping into the vortex.  Just may be slipping into the vortex. Heading to Seattle for a few days. The above problem is officially a back burner.

Monday, July 09, 2012

The Predictions

Watching the Bachelorette.  Not good at predicting what's going to happen.  And that's why I always spoil the show by watching spoilers.  But this time, I'm not doing that.  I'm resisting spoilage.  The finale's going to be like Christmas morning.

Friday, July 06, 2012

The "Auditorium"


#1 Son's been at jazz camp all week in one of our southern states.  The camp ends with each combo playing something they've worked on. So I'm there early, sitting and anticipating the happiness.  Some people come on stage and play and I'm getting ready to videotape #1 son.  Suddenly,  I get a call from #1 son.  He's done playing and wondering where I am. That's when I figure out that I'm in the wrong auditorium.   #1 son said it didn't matter, but I felt like a giant overgrown loser.  I'm getting over it, but honestly, I'm still irked.

Wednesday, July 04, 2012

The AC

We have a window unit air conditioner in our bedroom.  And the unit is so loud you can hardly watch telly or even think when you're up here. (I'm in the bedroom right now).  This alleged unit is almost new.  Come to find out, we got it last year.  I'm so annoyed by this unbearable noise. It's unbearable. Last night I had to turn the TV up so loudly that the sound was distorted through the tv speakers.  A lose lose situation.  Shouldn't complain because there are about a gazillion people in our great land without power in this grueling heat, and then all those other poor peeps lost their homes to the fires out west, but geez louise, I want to watch a show in my bedroom right now.  And that should not be a huge ass deal.

Monday, July 02, 2012

The Bigs


I'm reading a book called Walking In the World by Julia Cameron.  It's my second read through.  I like to read a bit in the morning before I work on the papers I'm trying unsuccessfully to write.  Then I scribble random thoughts in my notebook, then I get working.  Today I was supposed to write about big thoughts and big actions. Here's what I came up with:

Tree out my window.  It's dying and living at the same time
Eating crullers and fake bacon sandwiches
Gruyere cheese with pampano sauce
Dead seals shot in the head
Barking dogs with no place in particular to go
Fred Flintstone running in place  Barney beside him
Climb to the top of the waterfall No shoes
Move to Manhattan Walk 40 blocks a day
Imitate a quetzal  Get all preeny
Fan yourself with the largest fan ever made
Make a dress from cool lettuce leaves with cucumber detailing
Eat a plate of escargot and talk to them as you dine
Enjoy the massive heat