Yesterday was tough. I had anxiety about my work and a new symptom to report: the classic quivering upper lip. My lip was quivering off and on all day. I ignored it for the most part. Finally I got a few minutes to myself so I decided to diagnose the situation.
Come to find out, my quivering lip could be a sign of stress, which makes a lot of sense because my stress level is off the charts right now, what with the final chapter of the book being due a week ago and not yet written and a full time job that I'm passionate about and obsessed with both night and day. Secondly, it could be a result of too much caffeine. This also rings true because in order to be more like Patti Smith, I started drinking my coffee black this summer.
Also to be like Ms. Smith, I now drink black coffee all day long because that's what Patti Smith does and Patti Smith is someone I admire more than I can tell you. But peeps, here's the bad part. My lip quivering could be a pre-cursor to Bell's Palsy or Lou Gehrig's disease. There are some even worse diseases that I won't go into here. Let's take one day at a time.
Today my lip is not quivering, but it obviously could start up again at any moment. And that's the story of my quivering lip. I've learned that the best way to lessen anxiety is to get right to work on the thing that's freaking me out, so I'm about to continue working on chapter 5 right now. Chapter 5 is the final chapter, so you would think I would just be on that thing like a cowgirl at a rodeo. Such is not the case. I'm a slow writer. You all know that by now. Let's wish me luck today, if you remember to do so. And if you feel like it. But why wouldn't you?
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